30 Nov Not my will. . . but Your will God
After working at the top talent agency for nearly five years, I clocked out for the last time two weeks ago. Many were shocked to see me leave and some simply thought it was well overdue. After all, anything longer than two years at an agency is considered too long, unless you’re actually trying to be an agent. Many people inquired about my next step, “Where are you going?” I wanted to tell them. In fact, I almost slipped up a few times. I could’ve answered the question several different ways but out of respect, I landed at, “I’m going to take a break and see where things go from here.”
It’s common knowledge that working for a competitor in the entertainment industry isn’t accepted; it’s nearly frowned upon, so I decided to keep the details of my departure a secret. I continued to work overtime and performed my duties and responsibilities as I would on any regular day because I wanted to leave on good terms.
The truth is I was on the verge of quitting my job without having another job lined up. I figured, I’ll drive for uber, work when I want to work, and focus on developing my blog. Although the focus will continue to be on developing my blog, driving for uber is no longer apart of my master plan. But this is where I’ll begin to tell you how GREAT God is. I wasn’t even looking for a job. In fact, I stopped interviewing. I had a plan and was determined to stick to it. I stopped submitting resumes and paid little to no attention to job alerts.
One day, I was minding my own business just checking my emails, and I noticed an email from my LinkedIn account. It was a generic email that gives you an update on your account, but I noticed I had two unread messages. I logged into my account thinking it was just spam, but little did I know there was a goldmine waiting for me to read it. One, in fact, was spam, but the other was from the HR director of the company I recently joined. I looked at the message date and noticed it was sent a month ago – September 27th to be exact. Dang. I thought to myself. I just knew the job was filled, but I responded anyway. I responded with doubt. I expected the worse.
To my surprise, they were still interviewing for the position, and the HR director wanted to speak with me right away. After a brief phone conversation, we set up an interview for the following day. What’s even better is the office is located two blocks away from my yoga studio, so I was able to go to the interview immediately following my workout class and was still on-time for work.
But this interview was different. I was interested and after being let down a few times, interested was a very uncomfortable position to be in. I didn’t want to get my hopes up, and I certainly didn’t want to be interested. I didn’t want to be attached to the position and then suddenly have it ripped away from me. I felt conflicted. I was actually interested in the position and confident that I could perform all the duties and responsibilities required, but there was always a “what if.”
A few days went by, and they offered me the position. Really?? What just happened? I was thinking a million things a minute. Is this real? Am I really leaving? I was in shock! But there was one thing that I was certain of – this had God’s fingerprints all over it. He made a way. This was not my plan yet it was His plan. I went back to the scripture, “Many are the plans of a person’s heart, but it is The Lord’s purpose that will prevail (Proverbs 19:21).”
What are your plans? Have you confirmed your visions with God? Oftentimes we get frustrated with God – things aren’t happening as quickly as we’d like them to happen, so we make plans and wrap them in a spiritual bow and call them God’s plan. The thing is God’s knows the plans that he has for you (Jeremiah 29:11) so when you can’t recognize that your plans do not align with God’s plans, God will take the wheel and show you His glory. The plans that God has for you are greater than the plans that you have for yourself. Wouldn’t you rather have greater?
My prayer for you is that you allow God to show you His glory.
Have honest talks with God, and ask Him to lead you down the path that leads to your destination.
Whenever you feel that you’re growing impatient, take a look at your circumstances. Chances are you need something on that level in order to get to the next level.
Ask yourself, why do you want what you want? Checking your heart is necessary before growth. You must analyze that your heart posture is aligned with God’s heart because having the right thing with the wrong heart leads to destruction.
Be grateful for the now. Begin to confirm the things around you that you might be overlooking. Maybe God is waiting on you to say thank you for what He’s already blessed you with.
Trust in Him. If He said He will do it, He will do it. Look back over your life and see the evidence of God’s work. Has He ever left you? Even when you were at your lowest, you gained.
Erase your timeline. You will be disappointed when things don’t happen when you want them to. Telling God to move when you want Him to move might not be the answer, but telling God that you trust His timing and His plan for your life might be the very evidence of faith that God is looking for you to confess. It might be the key that unlocks the door that you have been waiting to open.